This post is to mention one of my favorite things. My happy list. Maybe you have already been told about my happy list. But just so you know, everyone should make one. I am definitly one who gets joy out of simple things. So one day I decided to make a list of them! Plain and simply a “Happy List” is just a list of things (little or big) that make you happy! Here is an example of some of the things on mine. It can be ANYTHING! Anything that makes you happy!
- The smell of rain and fresh cut grass
- Brushing my teeth in the shower
- Working outside on a nice day
- Key lime soda
- Cypress trees
- Contagious laughter
- Eating snow (strictly white)
- Dental Floss
- Fresh hot Bread
- Late night games with my family. The ones that end in us laughing until we cry.
Anyway, there it is. There are SO many things! I advise anyone who doesnt have one to make one. I add to my list occasionally when I think of something new and I now have over 150. Try it! Its fun to read others too.
So I was trying to decide how to write this post without sounding incredibly insensitive… but I cant. I will just be honest. I can be insensitive sometimes. So, this is going to be a post skimming the surface of my insensitivity. I will start off with an analogy. Why I post about my weaknesses I don’t know.
Ok, so you get a cut on your arm and you put a band-aid on it. Later, when you are pretty sure that the cut is healed you proceed to take of the band-aid ever so carefully. It’s a little painful and it takes a long time. But after it is off it feels fine and the pain doesn’t bother you again. The next time that you have a band-aid to pull you rip it off really fast. It hurts but only for a second. From experiences like this I have developed the”pull it fast” strategy. It works for me. The slow torturous pull never suited me much.
Now, let me compare this to saying goodbye. In goodbyes one may hear something like: ”I will miss you, I am so glad I got to spend as much time with you as I did… I’m so sad….” they may cry a little, give a long hug and it goes on as such. I am a little different. I do a lot better with “Welp. See ya later!” The problem with this is it is later that I feel the pain I think. I do have emotions; (although some may wonder) I just feel them on my own time table. But, if I don’t feel sad, I won’t act sad. Why? I just don’t really get it.
I bring the subject of goodbyes up because this Sunday I experienced a “slow pull.” And as torturous as pulling off band-aids may seem, this was worse. Ok, let me set the scene a little by telling you that I had just got out of church, I was tired, I was hungry and I wanted a little alone time. Ok, then my friend calls me up saying that he wanted to see me before he left. (couldn’t I just say goodbye on the phone?) So he came over and stayed at my house, and stayed and stayed until I was really ready for him to leave. I like the kid generally, but when it is our “last time together” as he put it, it’s kinda annoying. I think I just feel like if you are going to leave, just do it. No sense in drawing it out right? But what do you do in that situation? So basically he kept saying he should go and I kept saying “yeah” and then he would say “I’m really going to miss you” And what do you say that when honestly you don’t really feel the same way? Anyway, I could go on and on about our “last conversation” but it will just make me look worse and bore you to tears. So, I ended up standing up and walking to the door myself and having him follow me. We continued to talk outside. Then I proceeded to tell him that my family would be coming home soon and then we would be having dinner. So he drove away. Then the whole rest of the night I wondered why I didn’t care that he was leaving, and why I wasn’t sad. Wouldn’t I miss him? My usual routine goes this way with goodbyes. I seem to not care until they are actually gone and then it becomes real to me and I feel sad. Problem: Its been a week. And I’m still not sad. Am I hopeless? Heartless?
Well, it has been awhile since I have been able to get on and write a post, and I have a few minutes to spare today so I will write a little. Just to let you know a bit of what is going on in my life.
Well mostly I have just been working. Nothing too exciting about that except that I am pretty darn sure that there is a secret club in the building. One day I discovered that when you are in the elevator between the second and third floor if you are welcome into the secret club you will hear a little knock. I have heard it, but I have yet to find the secret door to inside. But investigation continues and I will let you know what I find out! Other than that work is pretty normal. Today I asked someone to “Hold Pwease.” I think I have been around Skyguy and Bowtie a little too much this week.
Speaking of Skyguy. His new favorite thing to do is play “ring around the rosies” with his favorite aunt. (me) And I’m not going to lie, I kinda like it myself! Although it wears me out! I just LOVE that kid though! Today he wanted to be with me any chance he could get so after we got done jumping on the trampoline I told him that I had to go inside to get ready for work. So he followed me downstairs into my room and I got him to brush my hair for me. (someones gotta do it 
) Then he came with me into the bathroom and while I curled my hair he talked to me and made really funny faces in the mirror to keep me company. It’s hard for one to be lonely around my place. There are so many things that he does that just makes me happy! It will be hard when he moves out.
Last night I came home from hanging out with Gnome and Rizzo and DW was out side on his motorcycle and we just sat down and talked. I think it had been awhile since we had really talked and I was surprised at how I missed it. We feel very similarly about things and it was nice to talk about something silly that I had been fretting over. He made me feel a lot better. Isn’t family great?
Well thats all for now. There really is more that I want to talk about, and a little more specific than this post was, but that will have to wait.
